Saturday, November 1, 2008

See Your Course New

Wow, today is November 1, 2008. I feel like I am living in a science fiction movie, like I am living in the future. Everything amazes me these days. Just that we can communicate together on this level in this blog amazes and awes me.

One of the primary aspects of the blog, and the Course of Training available by email, is the section at the end of each blog entry containing "comments" from readers. There have been very good questions and answers there in the comments section.

Once again we will present a couple of questions and answers that have not been published yet, and then we will also include 3 of the exchanges from the comments following the previous entry. I suggest strongly you read all of the comments posted under each entry, if you have not already, as some incredible stuff has been shared. So here we go:

Kevin: I met you a few years ago when you were leading some programs in Santa Monica. I was always impressed with how evenly you answered questions. No matter what anyone asked, or how unexpected their questions might have been, you always came from the same steady place and seemed to give the perfect answer to every single question.

I wanted to get my own "perfect answer" so I raised my hand and when the microphone came I said, "No matter how hard I try, I cannot seem to meditate. I can't even make my mind still enough to sit for meditation." And your answer totally caught me offguard, as you said, "Do you take my course?"

I confessed that I didn't take it, and you said, "Take the course."

Well, I figured I could recognize a sales pitch as well as the next guy, and I thought, Boy, he'll say anything to get people to take his course.

Of course, I didn't take your course, as I was much too stubborn and proud for that. What could you possibly know that I needed enough to pay money for? I enjoyed your program very much, but did not see how a course by mail could create or even sustain the experience of the program with you.

To make this short, years passed. I forgot all about the program and I never thought about the course again. Then about a month ago, a friend told me that you had started a new course that was available by email. He said everything had changed for him since beginning it. I finally agreed to commit to three months of your online course, mostly to pacify my friend.

As I started reading Lesson 1, I would read a paragraph or two, and suddenly I would fall into meditation. Then I would start reading again, and I kept falling into meditation. I figured I just wasn't used to the way you wrote, so I didn't think too much about it. Then Lesson 2 arrived, and by now I was looking forward to something new. I read the first three or four paragraphs, and then started falling into meditation again. Before I had read half the lesson I had experienced several pauses for meditation.

Finally I remembered what you had said to me at the program in Santa Monica: that since I had a hard time meditating, I should simply take your course. It never sank in at the time that you were only stating a simple truth, that there was no sales pitch at all. In fact, now I know you are quite detached from whether others take your course or not, and that you simply love your work. At least that's what my friend told me, and this time I trust her to know what she's talking about.

Tell me, though, how does meditation happen through reading the lessons? Can you explain that one?

DRB: The most honest answer that initially comes up is, I don't know.

I do know that I have gotten similar feedback from many people over the years, so I understand that it is something that happens. I can report that when I sit to write the lessons, I go into a state of meditation as I write, so it is sensible that certain others who are sensitive and receptive enough might be pulled into meditation as well.

The main thing that happens through the Course of Training is that there is a transmission of energies through the lessons. I can't intellectually explain it where it conveniently fits into everyone's mindset, for there are some who will accept no explanation whatsoever, and who are not impacted in the least by the readings. I do have full faith that each individual gets exactly what he or she needs at the moment. Anyone can prove this true simply by experimenting with an open mind.

That much should be obvious even in the blog.

Cheryl: Since you started making your writings available again in July I have been keeping up with everything--the lessons, the blog, the comments, and everything else you send--and since I have started the course anew it feels like my life has sped up big time. Everything is just happening faster now. Things even get done faster, and with less effort it seems. Somehow I actually seem to have more energy.

It occurred to me, like William mentioned in his comment last time, that you are putting out an awful lot, with a new lesson and blog entry every two weeks, not to mention answers to questions in the comments. Is there any connection between that and the fact that life seems to have sped up for myself as well as for some friends of mine who also take the course? We all feel like everything is going much faster since beginning the course. Can you write a little about what is going on?

DRB: I am including this question in the blog because several people have expressed the same thing in various ways.

Once again, all I know for certain is that my life has sped up too. Before July, I never would have dreamed of doing all the stuff I'm doing now, interacting with so many people, or even spending time in a world where such interactivity is possible. Since the first entry of the blog was published and Lesson 1 was sent out, it seems like I am living on an entirely different energy level. Kay has had the same experience, and all our children have noticed this about us--that we are faster, more efficient somehow, more focused on whatever is happening.

In my experience over the years, I have found it best to not try to explain certain things too much, or to cling to grasping things with the mind. Some things cannot be grasped by the mind, because they are processes taking place on higher and more refined levels than mental activity.

Certain things can only be experienced; they cannot be explained or understood by the mind.

In the same way, there are certain things that you cannot know--you can only be.

Observe your experience as you progress through the course. Yet do not think everything has to be explained, or even that everything can be intellectually undestood, because the mind only goes so far. There is a great deal that exists beyond the mind, and the first step to discovering what is actually present is to grasp the fact that a lot is beyond the realm of mental activity.

Sometimes things might seem to speed up. Sometimes things might seem to get very intense. Other times you might go so deeply into a state of living bliss that your mind can hardly comprehend why or how you are feeling so wonderful without any apparent reason or cause whatsoever. Simply observe what happens, see what is intuitively obvious, and don't expect or demand too many explanations for the inexplicable.

I mentioned in the last entry that I am deliberately writing more than the mind can keep up with. Anyone who has read everything I have published since July has had to imbibe a lot of stuff very fast, and it's almost impossible to keep up with or assimilate at a reasonable pace.

This has two primary consequences: one, we are forced to assimilate ideas at an unreasonable pace, which is good for us as well as expanding and quickening to the mind; and two, we are gradually and gently forced to go beyond the mind altogether. There is much more to discover about life and the inner Self once we enjoy the extraordinary realization that all mental activity, and all our egotistical melodramas, take place within a very small, narrow, and limited world.

The lessons of the course aren't about what's in the mind; they are about that which is beyond the mind--which is a lot.

Also, please consider that I might not always remain this prolific. There is no guarantee that there will even be another entry past this one. Right now I am enjoying writing a lot, and the planets are aligned just right to give me the capacity to communicate on a very subtle level; yet later on, who knows what might happen? Ram Dass had a stroke in his sixties, although thanks to God he is still going strong. Still, he has slowed down, and while the quality remains ever-pristine, he is no longer quite as prolific as he had previously been. Anyway, we'll see how far I can go before these batteries wear out, and then we can spend the rest of our lives assimilating all that was written.

Hopefully you know I tend to be very tongue-in-cheek, and you will never take me too seriously.

Chris: In Lesson 4 you write, “Each of us lives in a world of our own making. In reality, we create everything from scratch every moment.”

After having practiced consciousness and spirituality all of my adult life, I often wonder, is it ever truly possible to understand someone else? What I think I understand of them becomes part of my own personal reality, how can I ever know if it is synch with the other person’s reality? This trail of questions often leads to a deep, aching loneliness.

Could this be my mind trapped in an incomplete understanding and the ego grasping it as its own?

DRB: As always, Chris' posts have a way of being very in-pulling. When I read what he writes I feel very deeply pulled inside. He is a deep thinker who is sincere in his contemplations.

Chris, responding to your contemplation, I'll simply share an experience I had once. There were a group of us in a totally dark room, all sitting on the floor--although we could no longer see each other--and we all had on headphones that were connected to the microphone in the center of the room. There was no sight, and the only sound was what came over the headphones, which was exactly the same for each of us since the one microphone was the only source of sound. If one of us spoke, we would all simultaneously hear the same voice in the exact same way. Even the speaker would hear his or her voice as though someone else had said it, or as though everyone else were hearing it.

After a while we all began to feel strangely like we were floating giddily in space, bodiless, and there was one single voice that had many different sounds and melodies, and sometimes there would be a crescendo of laughter that would cascade through the earphones and throughout our one Being with such electric jolts of bliss that it began to seem absurd that we had ever thought there was any difference between us in the first place.

Is it truly possible to understand someone else? Here is another question: Is it truly possible to understand ourselves? The average person in today's world has very little understanding of who he is, much less who anyone else is.

Many years ago it was written: "Know thyself." Yet we have not advanced very far since then in that particular area, even though we've made brilliant technological advances in the outer world, which enables us to communicate in this real time way around the planet, among other things. The wise King Soloman himself said, "Wisdom is the principle thing, and with all thy getting, get understanding." This is the primary reason for being, if indeed there is anything like a "reason" required in order to be.

With such little understanding of ourselves, what chance do we have of really understanding another? As far as that goes, what is the actual difference between us and another in the first place?

Going back to the experience I described in my previous comment, as we were in the darkness and had only the sound from the microphone coming into our heads, we lost all sense of separateness and difference. There was just one Being with all these various voices. Is this not who we truly are anyway, in reality?

This body comes and goes; it does not last forever. It is here for a cycle of karma, which will be explained thoroughly in the lessons of the course so that we can enjoy complete understanding. Once we depart the physical body on the wings of the final exhalation, we realize very vividly and lucidly that we are indeed not the body, and that something very real and very present continues long after this body has returned to the elements of the earth from which it came.

If we are not the body, or the mind, or the emotions, or the various psychic phenomena--both noticed and unnoticed, depending on our development in awareness--then what is the real difference between us anyway? If there is only one Consciousness, one Self, one Being peering from all these pairs of eyes, then aren't we only seeing our own Self in everyone?

It is when we grasp the true magnitude of our aloneness, and the true glory and resplendence of our own eternal Self, that we go beyond the "deep, aching loneliness."

That loneliness comes from the delusion that there is another to be united with. It is what the poet saints of India refer to as "the pain of separation." As long as there is a sense of separation, there is pain and loneliness.

Once we get it that no one else is ever there, or anywhere; that there are only reflections of our own Self in all these bodies, we suddenly grasp the great Aloneness that pervades and permeates the entire cosmos. It is a sense of eternal completeness and an ultimate contentment. It is the great wholeness of Being.

Then a deep joy radiates upward and outward from within, and light pours from us into the universe around us. In this state we live fearlessly, and our very presence brings light and comfort to others.

The understanding of our own Self is the greatest contribution we can make to the world, to humanity at large, because there is only One of us that needs to be understood, only One that needs to be realized, and we can do this at any moment once we are conscious of the Truth of our own Being.

Finally it is clear that there is no difference between knowing ourselves and knowing another. To know one's own Self is to know everyone simultaneously.

William: I feel like I am in one of the workshops of old, except that it is happening online very fast, and on the inside at the same time, and it's requiring me to make some subtle adjustments inside somewhere to keep up with what is happening.

Last night a question came up for me, so I decided to write DR and see what he had to say about it if anything. To my surprise, I received an answer about fifteen minutes later, and he mentioned to me that he was just hanging out online with students of the course. At first I wished I could be one of them, and then I realized that I was one of them, that he had answered my question as immediately as if I had been sitting with him, and exactly in the way I needed at the time, which DR has some natural knack for doing.

So I am taking him up on his offer to join him during the day Sunday if we liked, and I have a question. I admit, this one is the businessman in me coming out, but I have to ask just to hear what is the reply, so that I don't have to worry about it anymore.

DR, you seem to be giving out a great deal right now. I have received all 4 lessons so far and read all the blog entries and comments and everything else you've been involved in, not to mention immediately answering my question by email last night. Really, who would have thought that you'd be sitting around on a Saturday night online with students of the course?

Anyway, my question is, you are giving so much for free here on the blog. Aren't you afraid that, by giving so much away for free, many people who would otherwise take your course won't be taking it, since you are giving most people as much as they can keep up with in the blog alone? Does my question make sense?

I know that you still have children in school and that you must generate an income to live in this world, just as we all do, especially in today's craziness. Thanks for your comments on living in the world in the recent entry, btw. Anyway, I just wonder if there is anything to my concern that you are giving away too much for free? Can you address this for me?

DRB: Am I giving away too much for free? What a fascinating question.

I thank you for your concern, William. You have a generous heart, and I appreciate where you are coming from.

Many of you probably know that I came in touch with yoga and meditation at the age of 15, when I lived in Mississippi, and moved to Greenwich Village in Manhattan at age 22, and over the next few years came across many different spiritual paths and traditions and teachers. I chanted with the Buddhists, danced with the Sufis, meditated with the yogis, worked on myself in Gurdjieff groups, went to see Krishnamurti, Yogi Bhajan, Dr Ramurti Mishra, Swami Satchitananda, the Sufi Master whose name escapes me, Yogi Rama, Ram Dass, Guru Bawa, and a hoard of others that I just can't think of right now. All these great teachers, excepting Ram Dass, thank God, have left their bodies now. Yet, in their time, they each contributed in major ways to the growth of those who crossed their paths.

And who has come to take their places? No one can step forth today, or before you know it there will be a site on the Internet condemning them. Makes you wonder what that crucifixion stuff was really all about, and if anyone would actually do anything any differently today.

Of these that come to mind, excepting Ram Dass who thankfully remains among us--I remember Guru Bawa most vividly. He was a little old man who had appeared out of the jungles in Ceylon somewhere, and he was recognized by many as an enlightened being, a God-realized one--one who sees God and only God in everything everywhere he looks.

Speaking of Indian poet saints, one was named Tukaram Maharaj. Tukaram said: O Lord, this is how I worship You: You are everywhere. You are in every direction. Wherever I turn, You are there. Wherever I go, You are there also. There is not a place, there is not a thing, there is not a person in whom You do not exist.

So I went to see Guru Bawa in the basement of this church in New York City. I took my place in the audience near the front, and since the program had not yet begun, I went to find the restroom.

I went down a hallway and opened a door that I thought led to the men's room. When I opened it, Guru Bawa was sitting quietly in a chair all by himself. I remember him like the sun itself, for he literally lit up when he saw me. He was a tiny brown man, dressed totally in white, bald but with a full glorious white beard, and he had these penetrating, sparkling, twinkling eyes that seemed somehow to be dancing with my own eyes. He looked absolutely delighted to see me. Then he humbly bowed down to me.

I had never been bowed to before. It was a humbling experience. And it was the last thing in the world I expected him to do. It just blew my mind more than anything else, and I suppose at the time that's probably exactly what I needed more than anything else.

I simply pardoned myself and backed out, but I knew inside that it had been well worth it to go to that church in New York City that evening, and to meet Guru Bawa in person. If someone could see God in me, I thought at the time, then he was indeed a God-realized being, for anyone less would not be up to the task.

Anyway, should I charge anyone money to quote Tukaram Maharaj or to tell them about the teachers I met along the way who added to my development? To me, it is only dharma, right action, to share my understanding freely with anyone who is open enough to receive it.

William touched on an excellent point when he said: "Aren't you afraid that, by giving so much away for free, many people who would otherwise take your course won't be taking it, since you are giving most people as much as they can keep up with in the blog alone?"

The truth is, it is more than most people can keep up with. I have unloaded a lot on you guys in the last 3 months. I went for 6 years in virtual seclusion without talking to any of you, remember. I have a lot stored up. Get ready. Brace yourself.

If you really want to do the work, you will keep up. If you don't, you won't. It's as simple as that.

The really bizarre part about all this, from my point of view, is that only a handful of you will actually read all this. I remember once when I was with a genuine yogic Master, who must remain unnamed for now, and a man came to him and said, "My father says I am going against our faith by coming to see you, he insults you to my face, and I don't know how to deal with him."

The wise Master laughed and said, "Among a thousand people, only one will wish to know God. Your father is not that one."

So the weird thing to me is the number of people who might hear about this blog but never even take the time to read it. Or those who will skim over it without thinking it really has anything to do with their own life. Or those who think, how did one guy put it, that it is all "new-age mumbo-jumbo," which is not exactly an enlightened point of view, yet it is real out there nonetheless. Do my own children read my blog? I don't know. I guess I'll find out now. Anyway I write all this knowing that only a few of you will truly hear in your heart what I am communicating.

I used to travel around the world giving workshops, and I would always wonder where all the people came from. If there was a hall for 500 people, 500 people showed up. If the hall would hold 200, then 200 would show up. Where did they all come from? No matter what city I was in, people would come from many different states, even different countries, to take the workshop. What attracted those people to those particular workshops at those particular times? That is the question. And what is the difference between those people and those who don't have the time to read the blog at all even though they know of its existence?

What makes a person ready to do the work required to know his own inner Self? When is a person ready to begin this? These are questions we each must answer at our own time.

I have seen over the years that certain people are attracted to this particular work. There are people taking the course now who originally started taking my course by mail back in the 70's, and I went for years without having anything to do with them, and they are still here. Where do they come from? God only knows.

Still, the people who are ready, willing, and able to do the work of the present moment will be attracted to the course in a most natural way. Some mystical energy pulls us all together to do the work of the Self so that we can come to know and experience the same Self.

There will be lots of people who read the blog who don't take the course. I welcome them with love. Everything here is offered freely and humbly. Hopefully there is something positive for you, something that will make a true contribution to your life.

There will be people who take the course who will say they don't have time to keep up with the blog. They only miss out on a certain aspect of the course.

Then there are those who are naturally attracted to the course, and these are the perfect people at the perfect time, just like everyone showed up at all the right times and places for all the workshops during the 25 years I actively led them.

What is my particular area of expertise at this point in my life? How, after all my study, training, and practice, can I function in a person's life that offers a unique impact?

The primary answer that comes up for me, in answering my own life's quest, from my own observation of many years, and after receiving much feedback from others around the world, is that I apparently function in the realm of transformation. I can work with a person in a way that helps guide him in his own personal transformation from one point of understanding and experience, to an entirely new, more expanded and elevated point of understanding and experience.

This is something that can only be done through the ongoing process of the Course of Training available through email.

I can share information, experiences, and positive energy in the blog as I am now, but the course must be taken for a person to be individually guided from one level of awareness and functionality to the next. Such a transformation requires an exchange of energy, and is not available for free. This is not my personal policy; it is simply the way the universe works.

If you look at any of the authentic spiritual paths and traditions, there have always been two levels of teaching available. One is the general teachings that are freely available for everyone, for the upliftment and enrichment of humanity at large. The other level of teachings are available only after an inner commitment has been made. The commitment is not to the teacher, but to being consistent and persistent in one's own path, and to not lollygag around, or be too lazy for too long, or to let the ego get away with too much, or to let the mind get too entangled, or to let the emotions get too negative, or to allow one's own state to be too contracted -- before coming back to the Truth of the present moment, back to the heart, and back to our love.

And here we are.

As I am writing, the Beatles are gently singing in the background, "All you need is love." And what was it that they said at the end of Abbey Road: that in the end the love you take is equal to the love you make.

How very true.

Brad: Your gift in writing has a way of working on the subtler levels of consciousness. As I read the new lesson, I find myself in different places as if I am standing there dealing with a reality in my mind, in a different place, time, situation, or aspects of dealing with what comes at me. Almost like parallel universes existing right here and right now. Not as if I took a trip somewhere, it was here and now. That is why the reading of the lesson is so healing. Now, if you understand what I just wrote, you can shed some light on it.

DRB: I appreciate your share very much, Brad. So you want me to shed some light on what you just said? Well, to begin with, you already said it very well, and your share sheds its own light.

The process of writing and reading takes place on various levels simultaneously. There is the mental level that we all know and love, where everything is translated into words and ideas, yet there are also deeper levels of being that are touched, nudged, awakened, nurtured, empowered, and eventually brought out into physical expression and eventual manifestation through the process of our Course of Training.

Many people can read an entry on the blog, or their current lesson, and have a perfectly enjoyable and uplifting experience, and then afterwards are not able to repeat a single word they read. It's almost as though they couldn't tell you what they just read, they only know that something within them was transformed during the process of reading.

It reminds me of a talk I was giving many years ago. In the back of the hall sat two women--one who had never heard me talk before, and another who had heard me speak many times. The woman who had never heard me before kept asking, "What is he saying? What is he saying?" And the woman who had heard me speak many times kept replying, "It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter."

This is somewhat how the course works. It is not about learning new information. All the information we could possibly need or use is already available on the Internet. As Rico pointed out in his comment following the previous entry, we can simply google whatever we choose if we only want information about it. Thankfully, there is something greater than the information itself.

The course is about expanding from one level of being to another, newer, more aware, and freer level of being. This process requires work on many levels of being simultaneously, and takes place naturally and spontaneously through participating in all the various forms the course takes.

This is one reason that rereading the lessons are so important. It is not merely assimilating knowledge. There is an inner transformation that takes place each time we refer to our current lesson. This is why a single reading can be interesting and momentarily uplifting, but will in itself produce no true transformation. For that, the acceptance of repetition as a method is required, as well as a commitment to consistency and persistence on the path that lies ahead right now.

You get a good idea of how the process works by simply reading the blog--especially in the inner workings and subtle rearrangements that take place during the process of exchanging questions and answers. The questions themselves bring out answers that were not consciously known to the one supplying the answer.

Now if any of us can understand that, it might shed lots of light for all.

Enjoy the blog as well as the new lesson you received today (except for those of you who have recently received Lesson 1; you will receive Lesson 2 on the 15th, which is also when I will post the next entry.) Meanwhile, be sure and check the new comments. If they are anything like last time, we're in for another subtle yet powerful workshop for the soul.

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Sam Small said...

Timely your comments about Ram Dass being still with us; He's undergone today hip surgery as a result of a fall. Prayers for his recovery would be well considered.

We are blessed as we take nothing for granted....
Sam Small

Bindu said...

This morning as I read lesson 5 aloud to my husband, as is our morning custom, we were both taken by the level of "change " that seemed to take place when we read the quote from the Yoga Vasishtha. Rich, my husband, keep asking me to re-read phrases. At first he expressed his frustration at not being able to comprehend their meaning. Then we re-read the paragraphs preceeding the quotation. Where you state that simply rereading is all that is necessary. Is this how transformation occurs? Sort of like a slow accumulation, and then a flash of comprehension? Is this what it means to imbibe something? When it becomes part of my consciousness, rather than ideas I am reading or hearing from an outside source?

Its funny because before I read this lesson I was questioning the significance of transformation vs process. In the past the I always figured that transformation trumped process any day. Now I am wondering if they aren't part of the same experience. The re-reading being the preparation process and the ah ha being the now of transformation.

Thanks for your willingness to interact with us in all these ways. We are sending great love and light to Pat and Anasuya, and are grateful to be part of the Healing Body.

rico said...

Hi Pearl, it's great that we can all interact in cyberspace like we were in an old fashioned workshop.
I too was fascinated by the Yoga Vasistha quote. After rereading it many times during my first reading of #5 I was struck by how I've heard this before. Expressed in contemporary concepts. DR has an extremely rare ability to express ancient wisdom in language we can all understand. Vasistha's words were tailored for his contemporaries. We are indeed fortunate that we have such a modern tailor.

D. R. Butler said...

Thank you for leaving your message, Sam. I see that you have your own video service in Hawaii. It brings to mind the fellow who always sets up the camera for Ram Dass' live webcasts, which Kay and I enjoy watching, as we have both always loved Ram Dass. You wouldn't be that fellow by any chance would you?

At any rate, since you informed us of his hip surgery today, he will get the fullness of our affirmative prayer, and we will include him in our expressed gratitude and affirmations of well-being at sunset, and during all the various sunsets until we get to Hawaii. If by any chance you are fortunate enough to communicate with him, please express our heartfelt good wishes and prayers for his health. His well-being is already assured.

I have spent time with Ram Dass on several occasions and in various places over the years. Since we are affirming his good health today, I'd like to share a story I've never shared before.

This took place during the summer of 1975. I had just written the very first lesson of the original course that went out by mail, and it was time to take it to the printer. It was the very first lesson of a course that would eventually be translated into five different languages and continue to be sent out for the next 27 years.

At this time I lived in Forest Hills, in Queens, in New York City. I was taking the first-ever lesson down the boulevard in Queens to Vishnu Press, of all places, that was run by a devotee of Shri Chinmoy, who had an ashram not too far away.

Just as I arrived in front of Vishnu Press, and was about to go in with my lesson, 3 men were coming down the street in the opposite direction. I recognized one of them to be Ram Dass, so of course I had to say hello.

So Ram Dass and the other two men and I are gathered outside the door of Vishnu Press on a busy boulevard in Queens. It was an unlikely scene. I told him I was taking in the very first lesson of my new course and showed it to him. He asked me about my teacher that I was with at the time, a yogic Master from India that Ram Dass himself had also traveled with and even introduced to Western audiences for a while. Of course, I had that usual experience you have with Ram Dass where you go swimming in his eyes and it feels like pure bliss.

It always felt very auspicious to me that Ram Dass was there in Queens to meet me outside of Vishnu Press as the very first lesson was being taken in to be printed, and I always felt a special connection with him right from the time he originally came home from India right after meeting his Guru, Neem Karoli Baba. I am honored to have the pleasure of sending healing energy his way this day of his hip surgery. We already know that he is in the hands of greater Beings than ourselves, yet we can offer our own prayer.

All our love today, Ram Dass.

D. R. Butler said...

Bindu, I have been contemplating your comment much of the afternoon, and so far it feels like I could either say a whole lot about it, or like it would be challenging to fully answer concisely, in few words.

Part of the answer has to do with the evolution of wisdom, which also includes growth of being. We can hear a certain teaching, a certain principle, and it impacts us according to our level of being. As inner being expands and deepens, the level of understanding and wisdom increases.

This is why the method of repetition is so powerful. Each time we read of a principle of Truth, it impresses us on a new and deeper level than we understood it before.

In the course I sometimes quote from various sources that have contributed to my understanding over the years.

Just to address your question, I would like to quote a few paragraphs from P. D. Ouspensky's "In Search of the Miraculous," in which he shares Gurdjieff's teachings from the copious note he took during his work with him. This particular section that I am quoting from is in the section where Gurdjieff is discussing the relationship between knowledge and being:

"'The fact is that the enormous majority of people do not want any knowledge whatever; they refuse their share of it and do not even take the ration allotted to them, in the general distribution, for the purposes of life. This is particularly evident in times of mass madness such as wars, revolutions, and so on, when men suddenly seem to lose even the small amount of common sense they had and turn into complete automatons, giving themselves over to wholesale destruction in vast numbers, in other words, even losing the instinct of self-preservation. Owing to this, enormous quantities of knowledge remain, so to speak, unclaimed and can be distributed among those who realize its value.'"

Later, Ouspensky quotes Gurdjieff as saying: "'They do not understand that knowledge depends on being. Not only do they not understand this...they do not even wish to understand it. And especially in Western culture it is considered that a man may possess great knowledge, for example he may be an able scientist, make discoveries, advance science, and at the same time he may be, and has the right to be, a petty, egoistic, caviling, mean, envious, vain, naive, and absent-minded man.

"'And yet it is his being. And people think that his knowledge does not depend on his being. People of Western culture put great value on the level of a man's knowledge but they do not value the level of a man's being and are not ashamed of the low level of their own being. They do not even understand what it means. And they do not understand that a man's knowledge depends on the level of his being.

"'If knowledge gets far ahead of being, it becomes theoretical and abstract and inapplicable to life....The reason for this is that knowledge which is not in accordance with being cannot be large enough for, or sufficiently suited to, man's real needs. It will always be a knowledge of one thing together with ignorance of another thing; a knowledge of the detail without a knowledge of the whole; a knowledge of the form without a knowledge of the essence.

"'Such preponderance of knowledge over being is observed in present-day culture. The idea of the value and importance of the level of being is completely forgotten. And it is forgotten that the level of knowledge is determined by the level of being. Actually at a given level of being the possibilities of knowledge are limited and finite. Within the limits of a given being the quality of knowledge cannot be changed....A change in the nature of knowledge is possible only with a change in the nature of being.'"

I loved "In Search of the Miraculous," first published in 1949, when I read it many years ago, and it continues to fascinate me even today. Hopefully something of value was contained in that quote for you.

Bindu said...

Thank you for your answer to my question. It contains far more than I would have thought possible. Reading and re-reading certain phrases I find that my mind tries but cannot "grasp" their meaning. Yet if I just let them sit there I experience a subtle feeling of wider understanding. The idea of the lack of being limiting knowledge seems to be the answer to all the troubles our world is facing. As I understand it by expanding being, we expand our ability to use knowledge wisely. This feels like a treasure to contemplate and practice.
Thanks again for your care and guidance.

Kristina said...

I have been working on myself for awhile and it seems that I am not what I thought I would be when I started the course many years ago. I am often confused and I certainly don't feel like I am beaming with the light of god. I often feel quite the contrary. I do accept myself alot more and I am alot less scared to say what is really on my mind. This is what bothers me. I used to be a very timid and reserved kind of person (I didn't get into any trouble) and now it seems I speak up alot more and I have alot more personality and I care less what others think. This scares me cause I think I am becoming some kind of monster but It just seems like even though before I was lets say safe and I was pleasing to everyone, now I have become the opposite. I don't know if I am going in the right direction towards my Self or if I am just going around displaying my big fat ego and making a total fool of myself. It seems I am getting into more trouble these days. Things don't always seem harmonious. Sometimes I am afraid of what comes out of my mouth and after I think, I can't believe I just said that. I challenge what people say to me and I am more critical of things others say. Like I want to think for myself more than just listen to someone else's jibber jabber. It doesn't seem very positive to me. Obviously, I know that I am not an enlightened person which I aspire to, but am I on the right track?

dazed and confused

D. R. Butler said...

Kristina, I relate totally to everything you are saying. I was just describing to someone not long ago about how I have changed over the past few years. One is that I speak my mind more without being afraid of what others are hearing. I also complain more, as I figure at this point it's better to just say something that to keep it bottled up where it will fester. Kay and I have an agreement that either of us can say anything to the other without the other taking it personally or reacting to it, just so that we will both be allowed complete freedom of expression. I've also noticed that I tend to curse more, although in the public blog I'll try to hold my tongue.

Anyway, the feeling I got from reading your question was that you are simply becoming more real, more spontaneous, and less of a people-pleaser, which is a big step. It's a huge step to finally just stop caring about how others see or hear us, or what they think of us.

A great teacher once said, "If people think worse of you, it will not hurt you; if people think better of you, it will not help you."

I can certainly attest to this in my own life. I have had people relate to me with great love and respect, and it didn't do anything for me. I still had to maintain my own state. And I have had people say and write the worst things about me imaginable, and spread the most ignorant rumors, and it didn't hurt me at all. I still had to maintain my own state.

You said, "I do accept myself a lot more and I am a lot less scared to say what is really on my mind."

This is a good sign, Kristina, and a big step to take. I'd say keep heading in the direction you're going. You have a good heart, and one day you will attain all your dreams.

Melissa Abbott said...

I have read Lesson 5 a couple of times and really liked what you said about egotistical melodramas, especially the part where you prescribed, very consisely, "the present is a great oasis in the middle of the mass minefield of egotistical melodramas"...the present..the practice...the work..."Do It Now"..
stop defending your ego..the pure self has no reactions, only the ego reacts...maintain a state of equanimity...Live in the truth of the present moment...emotional reactions distract us from living in the present moment....How much time I have wasted living in egotistical melodrama... who hasn't...breaking free sounds wonderful...I have experienced different levels of breaking free at different times...but like you talked about in lesson 4, I can't be identifying with "the good old days" It isn't then, it is now. The Yoga Vasistha explains it all to us in several paragraphs...we identify with our "jiva state"...but we are more...much ..much..more... This all reminded me of a flame, a flame of love burning brightly within each of us, the flame of the self, the flame of truth....I sometimes have heard it described by those who are lovers of supreme conciousness that if we were to merge into the flame we would be burned alive....I have noticed that it is a game to enjoy coming very close to the flame but because of the feeling of loving god so much or enjoying the energy of being in the darshan of god..., I don't want to merge or fly into the flame. I like the game of going back and forth. flying close to the fire...getting a little warm...basking in its glory, loving it...but backing down from it...I knew I was sent to a different culture and mindset almost for the fun of it so I could experience flying close to god again and again. Reading your lessons is like meeting everyone I am supposed to know and fulfilling myself here and now...right now... in this instant. God is experienced not so much understood. The mind is always thinking, thinking, thinking...God is not the mind, it is beyond the mind....the experience of God has no words (no melodramas) only refreshment and an oasis in the a boat in the a moth to a flame....
My question and I am asking this to benefit myself and others...Could it be that my obsession and love for God is a melodrama that keeps me from merging into God? When, How, and If... should I let it go? Is this the ego or something else?

D. R. Butler said...

Melissa, I think you are describing the dance we do with ourselves, the play of duality. Part of us wants to merge into eternal Oneness, and part wants someone to play with just a little bit longer.

In Lesson 5 it says: "Duality can be wonderful for lighthearted or romantic play, but if we get lost in it or take it too seriously, we lose touch with our own Truth."

Just don't get lost in duality to the degree that you get caught in the pain of separation--and especially don't get caught in conflict or friction with another.

Duality is for lighthearted or romantic play. Anything else will generally lead to trouble, restlessness, agitation, and ultimately hostility.

Either play with the other or remain focused on your own inner Self and remember that, above all things, the "other" is only a reflection of the same Self that dwells within you as your own Awareness of Being.

Everybody enjoy a great election day. Vote for the best candidate. (I suppose this applies only to Americans on this day, yet I am sure that folks everywhere hope we choose the right guy this time.)

Lisa said...

I want to thank you for what you are giving to us. I am so jazzed about the blog and new lessons that it has taken me a while to get into sync with all of it. Recently I got such a rush of what the blog actually is and how awesome it is to be able to check in and get yet another update in myself. Life feels happy again, and it comes through that it is that way for you also. The ability to be present seems so available now, creating this delight in each moment of life, to a far greater degree that was being experienced previously. I have been such a dweller in the soap opera of my mind. It's still happening, but the delight in the delight is so much richer and fun that I find myself taking note of what is useful thought and what is BS, and replacing the BS with what feels better. I keep getting this image of myself as this vessel that contains in and out this divine substance that makes all of life so much better. Seeing as I have viewed for far too long that this body must totally be the lowliest of the lowly, this is a transformation that is taking place and feels a little fuller every day. Feels so right.
Love to you

Charolotte said...

I just found one of my note cards with a quote from a book by a writer whom I very much enjoy.

“The absurdity of a life which may well end before we understand it does not relieve us of the duty to live it through bravely and generously, with passion and great kindness.” (Everglades by Randy Wayne White)

Another from the same book is, “Pain is an inescapable part of the human condition. Misery, however, is not. Misery is a choice.”

I’m not sure why I am sending these to you except that I ‘resonate’ with them both and wanted to share.

D. R. Butler said...

I love those quotes, Charolotte. The second one especially speaks to me. Pain is part of the human condition, but misery is something we create ourselves through our own miserable thinking.

Which brings us back to the most basic and simplest principles: Think only of what you want; refuse to think of what you don't want.

Think only what feels good; refuse to consider what feels bad.

Think only of what is pleasant; refuse to consider what is unpleasant.

Practicing these simple principles, first presented in the original blog entry in July, might not bring about the cessation of all pain; but it will certainly bring an end to our self-created misery.

Everyone is welcome to share quotes from their favorite writings. I enjoy seeing how other writers and teachers present the same age-old principles.

Enjoy your day.

D. R. Butler said...

Kay encouraged me to share this here, so I will trust her judgment on this one and share this with you.

I guess it is kind of a tribute to our new President-elect, Barack Obama.

I grew up in Mississippi, and like most young boys there during those years, I followed the Ole Miss sports teams. Even now, as a hobby and for relaxation, I sometimes go the the sports board at Ole Miss, and there is a section for non-sports posting, which is usually very political. One fellow, a right-wing type, was saying, "How can they say Obama can change the lives of black people? What can he do? I just don't understand." And I will leave out some of the less disrespectful stuff he said. So I replied to him, and that reply is what Kay encouraged me to share here with you:

Even a president can't change the lives of all black people, any more than a white president can change the lives of all white people. You are misinterpreting what was meant.

Here is how Obama can help change the lives of black people:

Everyone needs a role model, someone to look up to and want to be like. When I was young and growing up in Mississippi, my role models were (Ole Miss football heroes of my childhood) Charlie Flowers and Bobby Crespino and Jake Gibbs and Perry Lee Dunn and Glynn Griffin, who I even saw play in high school outside Vicksburg.

These were all perfect role models for me, because they were all white. I could relate to them and I could dream of one day being like them.

Black people understand today that, if they are really good and work very hard, they can grow up to be a college or even one day a pro athlete and make a lot of money and buy their mothers new homes and cars like they deserve after all the **** they went through growing up. Or, if they are bright and articulate, like Congressman Watts, they can even go and serve in Congress and give commentaries on CNN.

White people have presidents to look up to and emulate: George Washington, Abraham Lincoln, John Kennedy, Ronald Reagan, etc.

Black people have never been able to see themselves that way, or to aspire to be so great and so high up the chain in the hierarchy of man. Now, from the time they are small children, when their dreams of a lifetime are just forming, they can dream of being president one day, if they are so inclined---just like all the white kids can do.

That's how he will change black people forever: their self-image has an opportunity to be elevated. It isn't automatically elevated---they have to do some work as individuals for inner growth---but it is possible to expand or uplift one's self-image, which in turn affects how we perceive others as well as ourselves.

Seeing a black president at work, making decisions that affect the whole world, makes it possible for all black people to upgrade their self-image and their ideas of what is possible for them to be or become in their lifetimes. Now they can aspire to be everything anyone else can.

This was never possible before.

Enjoy your evening.

chris said...

In lesson 5 it is suggested that egotistical melodramas most commonly involve negative emotional reactions, but I find quite often when I realize I've been in at least what I thought was an egotistical melodrama, that the emotions stirred up are often not so negative. Would you say there is a difference between a fantasy or day dream and an egotistical melodrama?

D. R. Butler said...

Chris, it is possible to experience egotistical melodramas without negative emotions, and in fact most of us go from one egotistical melodrama to another all day long.

The thing is, egotistical melodramas without negative emotions are, for the most part, simply the stuff of daily life. For example, I can get excited about my dog Meggie and I hopping into the car to drive to Manhattan to pick up my daughter Sara for the weekend. So in the truest sense I am creating a melodrama about picking her up and her being here for a couple of days and the fun we will have together, yet it is simply the stuff of life---a way of describing our karma to ourselves in a way that we create a story around it.

The thing is, these sort of daily life melodramas aren't what causes us our trouble and pain and suffering. They don't stir up agitation, contract our state, or make us defensive and hostile and filled with blame.

The egotistical melodramas we have to work with in personal development, or spiritual work (sadhana), are those that involve negative emotions, because these are the things that not only cause us to forget the Truth of the present moment, but bring out our very worst features for everyone else to have to see and deal with.

In Lesson 5 it is said: "An egotistical melodrama is an imaginary situation. It is created when the ego takes a situation personally and superimposes its own way of seeing things upon what is actually present. The ego makes up its own story about the situation and automatically assumes that its imaginary story is true--no matter how depressing, how limited, how painful, how imposing, how presumptuous, how agitating, or how damaging to another it might be.

"This belief in the imaginary story triggers the corresponding negative emotions that make it a worthwhile drama for the ego to indulge in."

If we work on the egotistical melodramas that cause others and ourselves unnecessary pain and conflict, those melodramas that are free from negative emotions will prove to be fairly harmless.

The negative emotions--blame, defensiveness, anger, agitation, irritation, hatred, resentment, jealousy, envy--are what cause most of the suffering in our life. Without them we would be relatively free, and life would seem flowing and harmonious with very little effort.

Ultimately we have to be free from all negative emotions. Not that they won't exist--we'll still have anger arise, or a pang of jealousy, or a bout of agitation, or a tendency to blame--yet they will no longer take us over and express through us, sending out negative vibrations into the ethers to affect others.

The best we can offer others are our positive emotions--compassion, cheerfulness, love, lightheartedness, appreciation, and joy. All this is explored in depth in the lessons of the Course of Training.

Mary said...

Thank you to Kristina for her honest share - I feel like I'm in the same club - letting my "inner monster" out after 54 years - but I also feel my inner affectionate, tender self coming out as well. I think there's a condition however - I have to be able to feel my pain to feel my joy - and go through it cleanly (or let it go through me, rather) without letting the ego do its "misery" thing. I find that really tricky. My question is, do you agree, and how does that fit in with refusing to consider what is unpleasant? I know you said not to complicate things, and I don't want to either, but sometimes clarification helps to cut off my ego from protesting with "yes, but" stuff. Thank you so very much

D. R. Butler said...

Mary, I appreciate your sharing. There is a truth to the fact that as we break free from our tendencies to be inhibited and reserved, and allow ourselves to freely express those things that are not so people-pleasing, our "more affectionate and tender side" comes out as well.

When we are enslaved by inhibition, we prevent the expression of the best of ourselves as well as what we fear might be the worst of ourselves. This is why ultimately we have to be free from inhibition. Only then can we be truly spontaneous.

I loved when you said: "I have to be able to feel my pain to feel my joy - and go through it cleanly (or let it go through me, rather) without letting the ego do its 'misery' thing."

It is a great attainment to go through pain cleanly without getting into the negative emotion of misery, or without using the pain as a justification for allowing ourselves to be miserable.

Pain is not an egotistical melodrama. Misery is. Misery comes up when we create a mournful story to go along with our pain.

Much better to, as you said, so through the pain cleanly and be done with it without making a big deal of it.

When we think only of what is pleasant, then even our pain will never lead to misery. If we consider what is unpleasant, then we can experience misery even when there is no valid pain. In this way misery itself is an egotistical melodrama.

ari said...

It was very liberating to read what you and Kristina wrote about expressing yourself freely and not worrying so much about how other's view us. When I was young I was very outgoing and always spoke my mind (I'm talking grade school here). Then I suffered some trauma in my life and went into a shell for a long time. Through it I found yoga and a spiritual practise. I feel I have come full circle again but have not had the courage to really start speaking my mind until recently. With it I started to have doubts because it felt like such a big change. I felt at times it was "unyogi" like. So it was reassuring for me to read your posts on this subject.

My only added comment on it is how do you know when your just being an ass or speaking your mind? I remember reading a quote from my spiritual master on the subject. She said why would you spend all this doing meditation if your going to be mean to the first person that you come across. I think if you are coming from the heart you will be coming from a good place and wont have to worry if people are approving of you.

Melissa Abbott said...

You don't have to print this in the blog Ram but I just HAD to say something here..... so maybe I am taking a critical role here....

I must tell you, I am not very political and so maybe my viewpoint comes not from a political place. I am from Massachusetts so I never saw a black person till I was in High School. I tend to be altruistic because of this and because I never lived in prejuctice, I think of all men and woman as equal.

While, I enjoyed and agreed with your take on the whole election and Barack Obama.

I was actually very surprised that you would write what you wrote about Barack Obama in the Truth of The Present Moment Blog.

Although, I could tell you were encouraged to do so, and it was a very nice piece...BUT....since even Vasya had Ganesha to write things down for him and let him know if what he was writing was true, I must write this to you.

I have a sneeky feeling, which I have had since I read the post, that your post was a little test.... Like you are anyone on the blog actually ...awake...alive...aware? Is anyone going to bust me or say anything about this??? far, no one has said least that you printed...

I was reminded of when Baba er..I mean the teacher who shall not be named.... went to the church in Harlem to give a program and it was during the time of black power and just after civil rights. Everyone there was asking him...Is God Black or White? Is he a Woman or a Man? Is God Dead or Alive? (This was during a period when Time magazine asked the question, "Is God Dead?" on thier magazine cover.

The one who can not be named...or...Baba replied that God was not black or white, he was blue.....He spoke at length about how dark his own guru was and how dark his own skin was and that everyone in the church who worried about if thier god was black, white, man, or woman. God was none of these things. ...God was Blue...

So, if I think about or when I look at Barack Obama, I see him as blue. Not black, not white, not anything like that. I see him as so much greater as those things and I really believe that because he speaks the truth and is a rightous, no drama kind of guy that he speaks to all people on a level that is neither black or white. That is why he was elected. It is almost a way of looking at things in a new higher light. He walks in higher light, you can see the blue around his lips. He is truly a blue being and a great example walking on the earth at this time. He is probably Krishna and Abraham Lincoln incarnated. So yes, it is wonderful for people to have heroes and yes, isn't that nice...but I really feel you are missing the whole point of his election (at least from a truth point) If there is duality, yes, it exists in all our levels of understanding and cultural exposure. Barack is so much more than a color, hero, or idol. He is a walking, talking embodiment of the truth. A true blessing on an even greater level than most people realize.

So don't be insulted by what I am saying. I just think you should take your opinion on this to another level.

Ari said...

It was very liberating to read what you and Kristina wrote about expressing yourself freely and not worrying so much about how others view us. When I was young I was very outgoing and always spoke my mind (I'm talking grade school here). Then I suffered some trauma in my life and went into a shell for a long time. Through it I found yoga and a spiritual practices. I feel I have come full circle again but have not had the courage to really start speaking my mind until recently. With it I started to have doubts because it felt like such a big change. I felt at times it was "unyogi" like. So it was reassuring for me to read your posts on this subject.

My only added comment on it is how do you know when you're just being an ass or speaking your mind? I remember reading a quote from my spiritual master on the subject. She said why would you spend all this time doing meditation if you're going to be mean to the first person that you come across. I think if you are coming from the heart you will be coming from a good place and wont have to worry if people are approving of you.

D. R. Butler said...

Ari, you answered your own question: "I think if you are coming from the heart, you will be coming from a good place and won't have to worry if people are approving of you."

This is so true, and the answer to the question you presented. Simply come from the heart, from a place of love, kindness, and respect, and whatever comes out is what is best for everyone involved.

Your spiritual master is obviously very wise when she said: "Why would you spend all this time doing meditation if you're going to be mean to the first person that you come across?"

Too many of us practice our practices, meditate, repeat homilies and platitudes about what is good and best and right, and then we act like an absolute jerk the first time someone says something we don't like.

Kristina's post seemed to strike a nerve with several people. A lot of people think it's "unyogi like" to speak their mind--but the yogic Masters I have worked with didn't seem to carry that particular point of view. They spoke their minds to me several times, pulling no punches, and it was always very good for my ego.

You can speak your mind and still come from the heart, still come from a place of love and respect. Sometimes fierceness is required in a certain situation.

I am reminded of a story I once heard about Swami Satchitananda, one of the yoga teachers I met and studied with for a while in the early 70's. He was traveling on a crowded train in India with an older Swami. The older Swami had to leave his chair for a moment and asked Swami Satchitananda to please save his chair for him. Soon after he left a burly man came and sat down testily on the seat. Swami Satchitananda sweetly explained to him that the seat was saved for an elderly swami who would be right back. The burly man refused to budge.

Suddenly, Swami Satchitananda turned to the man and roared like a lion. You could hear his roar throughout the coach. The burly man took one hasty look at the yogi, and then quickly retreated from the chair. Soon the elderly swami returned to his seat.

Sometimes we have to roar like a lion. Sometimes, when faced with extreme negativity, stupidity, or rigidity, what is most appropriate is not always the nicest or most people-pleasing thing to do. Sometimes intensity is called for to serve a noble purpose.

Look at Arjuna, in the Bhagavad Gita; he had to go to war with cousins, uncles, gurus, and sages on the other side. When Arjuna doubted that war was the best option, Krishna reminded him, "It is the duty (dharma) of a warrior to fight for a noble cause."

Sometimes we have to fight for a noble cause--and such noble causes may be big things or little things. Yogis aren't always sweet people. My own Master once said, "I am not the kind of swami that turns the other cheek."

This is an interesting dialogue, and I appreciate that so many of you are taking part in it. I'd love to hear others' comments on the same topic.

Enjoy your day.

rico said...

I have always spoken my mind. The lesson for me was to be focused on love. This did not come easily as I did not abide fools well.

In retrospect, it seems much of what I was taught early in my journey centered around being focused on love. While I was told often that I could see things very clearly, I had a hard time feeling clearly the effect my words had on another. Once I began to develop the the empathy muscle I noticed that my words had more of an impact.

The exhortation to always be sweet seems phony to me. Like saccharin leaves an unpleasant aftertaste so to do sweet words that aren't flavored with real conviction. Of course, sharing one's agitation does no one any good.

More often than not the feedback I get when I honestly speak my mind is quite positive. Provided of course the recipient does not react melodramatically to what I say.

jimi said...

In Lesson 5 you say, "The truth is, some of our more limiting & even damaging aspects of ego are traits we consider to be among our strengths."

I used to be really proud of "speaking my mind", but in & of itself, it has absolutely no value because most of the time we are just imposing our opinion on other people. To paraphrase the very paraphrasable DR, "It's all about your state, baby." Speaking our mind from a crappy state is just more self righteous pollution.....just another instance of us trying to be right.

Speaking of which, DR invited us to share our favorite quotes, so here's one of my all time favoritos from Byron Katie: "Would you rather be right or free?"

D. R. Butler said...

Rico and Jimi, I enjoyed both your comments, and they both made a nice contribution to our dialogue regarding speaking our mind. It is truly a subject worth understanding more clearly. Perhaps in the next blog entry we'll go into it more deeply.

Meanwhile, I want to let you guys know about my new My Space site. Those of you who also have My Space sites might want to interact there, although this blog will be our primary meeting place, and where most questions will be answered.

The link to that site is:

chris said...

Ephesians 4:15 says to speak the truth in love. Oh all the times I've spoken my mind, even today, how many times has it been with love? And, by the way, since truth is love, if I didn't speak with love, most likely I didn't speak the truth. This is humbling indeed. If my mind isn't grounded in the moment, then it isn't coming from a space of love and probably isn't worth speaking. At the same time however, speaking the truth in love may not always mean saying sweet things. I guess it is like being a loving parent requires some firm instruction from time to time.

Anyway, speaking of today, I had a couple of prime chances to exercise my egotistic melodrama control skills with contentious coworkers today. I wish I could say I sailed through the tests with flying colors, but I confess I had to work pretty hard to regain focus and be grateful for being shown where my samskaras are hiding. I am reminded once again how blessed I am to be given the opportunity to learn how to live in the truth of the present moment, otherwise I might still be stewing about what he and she said and how it made me feel. How refreshing to breath the clean air of NOW.

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